Never too Late

Helllo people! Soooo i know i am terrible at posting but i just feel like i run out of things to tell you guys, so if you have any questions at all of what to do or anything you need help with at all then PLEASE PUH-LEASE let me know! (simplyana123@gmail.com) You guys are awesome and i know that whatever struggles you are going through right now, are minor things, and that you will be back on track and doing amazingly whenever you set your mind to really committing to it. 

GOOOOOOoooOOD LuuuuUUUUckkk!

XooOx

Sorry for the wait!

Hey you guys! Sorry that it's been a few days since i've posted, i've just been having a really hard time getting myself back on track. I am ALOT better this week, but still not as good as i was before...


Yesterday i went to the doctors.. (again, i know...) i've just had a really bad cough and needed to make sure that it wasn't pnemonia or anything too serious. I'm fine. But when they weighed me i was SO happy! I was 123! And that was with heavy clothes on, i think i'm really about 121! Isn't that great!? I mean, two weeks ago i was 118... So i gained quite a bit, but since i was 118 i have been eating full meals, and TONS of calories.


I am SO motivated to get back into the groove of things. I am so happy! So i really want to help you guys! I really don't know if anybody reads this, because not too many people contact me but i hope that someone is benefiting from my posts. 


PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know if you need help! I know that it can get really rough, and giving into food temptations can be really easy at times. If you ever need any help just email me (simplyana123@gmail.com) i answer emails really quickly and can be of assistance in a snap. 


I hope you all are doing great, and i hope that you do not give into temptations of ANY kind! You are an AMAZING ana!


xxOXo

Formal Friday TWO

Heyy! How are your weeks going?? 
Today i am dressed up again for "Formal Friday" Even though it is really chilly outside, i love seeing my thin legs walking in my heels. I'm glad i've started to get back onto track. It feels amazing to be skinny and constantly losing weight.


I'm actually really worried about this weekend, i know that i want to be skinny, but last night i was getting all cuddly with my ex boyfriend and he was talking about getting back together again and such, and while i don't know what i am going to do about him, the subject of weight got brought up. And of course i stupidly said: "i wish i was skinnier" MISTAKE NUMBER ONE: NEVER SAY THAT TO PEOPLE WHO THINK YOU'RE ALREADY "THIN." Well he told me that i would look gross if i was any skinnier. SHOOT. I know that i want to be thinner, but i'm worried that he'll convince me to stop my progress! 


I want you guys to realize that despite what people tell you that you and i can both overcome what they say. We SHOULDN'T care what other people think. We are getting skinny for our own good, and no matter what people say, i want you to DO WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU. 


Please don't listen to what friends or family say. (Unless you are like 5'8" and weigh like 70 pounds, in which case TOTALLY GET HELP... ha ha) But for those of us that just want the image of perfection, DO NOT GIVE IN. 


I've said it a million times by now, and i'm going to say it again, YOU ARE STRONG. Probably even stronger than me, so DO NOT let anyone tell you otherwise, and know that you are amazebeans. 


YOU DETERMINE WHAT YOU ARE. 


XOxoX

Thursday, First Day!

Hey guys! How has your week been going? Mine has since been terrible... Up until today.


Last night i went to Walmart and bought a box of cherrios because i only have V8's, a bag of saltines, and vitamins, in my cupboard. So i bought cherrios and decided that since i have been binging so much that i will use the cherrios to control my binges.


When i get hungry, like really feeling like i need to binge, i will eat a cup of cherrios, because that is only 100 calories, and they are pretty healthy for you. And if you eat them one at a time, they fill you up pretty easily. 


So far today i haven't eaten anything but like 3 sticks of gum. I haven't even taken my medication for my ADD either.. So i hope i can control this all day long.

I'm about to go out to lunch with my friend. I don't know if i've said this but we are required to buy a "seven meals a week" meal plan, so i already paid my $900 for the meals for the semester, so i hate just letting them go for waste. So i go out to lunch everyday and usually i just get a pasta dish and slowly eat like 5 or 6 noodles from it. Or i get a salad and put a little water on it (when nobody is looking) so that it looks like there is dressing on it! It's worked fairly well, but today is my first day being back on the anorexic train, so it will be hard to resist getting a quasadilla or chicken strips.


 Anyways, wish me luck, i wish you luck. I want you guys to email me (simplyana123@gmail.com) and let me know how everything is going!! Please! Best of luck to you Ana's. 


Xoxox.

Crappy

So hey... I pretty much suck. 
Last Saturday i went out to dinner with my mom and dad at this great pizza place called Arella's, and i ate 4 slices of pizza! And an appetizer! And ever since then i have been eating fairly normally. Today i got up and ate some wheat thins and cereal, and for lunch i had a few bites of pasta.. Man i am doing terribly! I can feel myself getting fatter and fatter, but i can't stop eating. I want to try, and i am going to try to fast for the rest of the day.


Being anorexic takes so much energy to keep up! It's just so damn hard! I don't know what to do, and instead of giving you advice, like i've been trying to do, i am crying for help. I really need to stop eating, and nothing is working, it's like my self control level is so low! Ugh. I'm going to try and let you know how my fast goes. I think i am back up to 125.. And i am so sad to think that last week i was at 117-118! What a failure.


Good luck to you guys, PLEASE do NOT eat anything! You will just binge. I have a saying as my background on my phone:


"Food is Regret, Thin is Beauty"


Please remember this, and do not turn out fat like i have these past few days. Bleh.


xoxox

Day 4 of ABC

Hey guys.... 


So guess what. My tonsils have  been huge the past few days, and i've been kinda achey. So i went to the instacare today, and after like 3 attempts to find my veins to give me an IV. (Freaking KILLED) They just decided to just take a blood sample and find out what i have. So i agreed and the elderly nurse took my blood, then GUESS WHAT.


I found out i have MONO! Oh my goodness i'm pissed. Because i never share drinks with anyone or anything... Although i do make out alot... But anyways,


This is good, but bad. Now my mom doesn't make me eat food (i'm only home until Sunday) but my throat hurts so bad. I think i'm going to end up fasting the next few days for the most part.

I know this post doesn't have many tips for you guys, but i just wanted to let you know where i am. And encourage you to keep on track! I know that you can all succeed. I weigh 119 today, i've lost nearly 10 pounds! YAY! This is so good! 


Best of you guys, i know that you can do it, and i know that you guys are stronger than me. I'm weak. And take Vyvanse. Ha ha, a cheater, i know.


xoooxooxox

Day 3 of ABC

Hello again! Sorry i don't update this blog daily, i just get busy doing other things, like yesterday was binging... 


Yes. I said it. Binge. Soooo day 2 of ABC is supposed to be 500 calories, but like i've mentioned, i'm home with my family for Spring Break and so i have to eat little things in front of them so that they don't get suspicious. Well last night my mom made these DELICIOUS chili burgers for dinner, and although my family knows that i am vegetarian, they kept pushing for me to eat one. And do you know what?? I did. I ate half of one.


It tasted amazing, AT THE TIME. But looking back on it, yuck. It was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo not worth the hurt i went through. Right after dinner i helped with the dishes and i went to my room, and it started to eat at me. I couldn't take it any longer and HAD TO PURGE. I went to my bathtub and tried so hard to purge but nothing would come, so i drank a few bottles of water, and all the lettuce i ate at dinner came up... Then i went upstairs and tried in my moms bathroom, and again, only lettuce came up. All in all, i was pissed. NONE OF THE MEAT WOULD COME UP! 


So today i am going to try to fast even though i am supposed to eat 300 calories today. I'll probably have to eat something with my family at dinner but DO NOT GET TEMPTED. I can't even describe to you how much it is not worth it...


If anything remember me, think about me jabbing my toothbrush and fingers down my throat. Think about puke. Another thing that may help is if you think of your food as puke. Imagine it all acidy and ground up. Think of the food as it comes up your throat. Do you want that? Do you want chunks of that food coming up your throat? Do you want gross breath, and eventually rotten teeth? Just from eating food? No. So don't do it. I know you can stay strong, and if you need help please email me (simplyana123@gmail.com) I really can try to help you.


JUST DONT GIVE IN. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN ME.


xxxoooox

The First Monday of ABC

Hey Anas, how was your weekend? I hope it was starvingly great!

...Mine wasn't too grand.

I came home from the University until next sunday for Spring Break, but this last weekend i had to babysit my younger siblings while my parents were in Vegas. Oh man oh man was it hard. I feel like i binged so much. I mean i burned over a thousand calories by running, but everyday i ate around 500 cals. And i was getting so disappointed with myself.
Well when my mom and dad came home i decided to weigh myself and guess what! I weigh 122! I am so proud of myself!

So today i decided that it would be the first day of Anorexia Boot Camp. And i am fully dedicated to keeping on track. It worries me, because alot of the days you eat around 500 calories, and there aren't many fasting days, but i haven't really heard that bad of things about this diet so i can't wait to share with you my results!

If any of you have experience with this diet PLEASE let me know how you felt about it, and your stories. (simplyana123@gmail.com) Seriously i'm pumped!

But i do have a tip or two for you people. I have a very good Ana Buddy and a few weeks ago she asked me how she could keep her energy level up because she seems so tired all the time. Well i realized that most of you guys are probably WAY more tired than me alot of the time. I actually have ADD and take a perscription called 'Vyvanse' in order to help me focus and do well in school, and it REALLY shoots me energy. BUT, i do have a really low dose, so i have become adjusted to it, and still need that extra burst from other sources, so here are some ideas that you can try.

-Take MULTIVITAMINS. (You can get them in pills, but i get mine from Costco, and they are gummy bears and they taste like fruit snacks. I take 2 different kinds, one is calcium and the other is a bunch of other essentials. They are only 30 for me to take the serving of 4 bears!!) Honestly, they will really boost your energy because you will be getting the nutrition that you need!
-DRINK A V8. They come in these little tiny bottles that are only 5.5 oz, and it is only 30 calories for the whole thing. And that is a full serving of vegetables! I know that you are supposed to get 5 servings in a day, but that's ridiculous, if you just drink one of these bottles in the morning you will be getting more nutients, and you will be happier and full of more energy!
-SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP. I cannot stress this enough. Fat people need AT LEAST 8 hours a night, and that is for people that pig out all day! Us anas' need a bit more than that because we have self control and don't need to stuff our faces all day long.
-DRINK GREEN TEA. All day long. If you don't like the taste, put in an artificial sweetener. (ONLY IF YOU CAN CONTROL CRAVINGS, it is proven that artificial sweeteners make you crave things more, so be very careful using them...) But green tea will clean out your system AND keep you awake and in action!

This is just a short list, if i think of anymore i will remember to let you guys know, or if you guys have something that gives you amazing energy, PLEASE let me know!

I hope your day is great, and i hope to keep you posted on my ABC diet! WOOHOO!

Xxoox

Formal Friday

Hey Anas! Today is FRIDAY! And where i am it is also the first day of SPRING BREAK! ...Tooooo bad there is snow all over the place....

So i have a tip or two, as always. Last night i went to my friends house and we ended up taking some shots and drinking a bit, well OH MY GOSH. I had never really drank any alcohol when i was on a fast before. WOW. I only took one shot and a half of vodka (ew, but only 60 cals in one shot) and dannnnnnng i can tell you that if you ever do that you will get so drunk off of only one shot, it was crazy. But yes, i have mixed feelings about it right now, because i'm still a little drunk or hungover from it, and my stomach hurts so bad. You aren't supposed to drink on an empty stomach. 

I wouldn't advise you to do it, but i wouldn't advise against it. I think it speeds up your metabolism a bit, because i already feel skinner, (and look it!!) 

So do what you want, (IF YOU ARE 18!! DO NOT DRINK BEFORE THAT AGE) but remember this, alcohol has tons of calories in it. So if you are planning on going out drinking, make sure they have Smirnoff Vodka, it really is low in cals. And DO NOT EVER drink beer. You fatten right up, yup, just like a pig.

My next tip is to get the app i have on my iphone. If you have an ipod touch or iphone there is an app called "Lose It" and it is free, it has helped me so much, like it keeps track of everything you eat, calories and all! I would STRONGLY recommend getting it. It really makes everything so much easier.

And my last tip for the day is FUN! I do this thing called "Formal Friday" and basically i just dress up in dresses and skirts and stuff... It really is fun to do because it's at the end of a long week of determination, and on Fridays i feel like i can dress up and show off my progress for that week. (Don't do this is you don't want people to see that you are losing weight, obviously.) But i makes me feel like and like i have accomplished something. I mean, granted, my normal outfits consist of oversized sweaters/sweatshirts, jeans/leggings, and Uggs. And i really don't do my hair because it's naturally okay looking. BUT it really is fun, i want you to try it next Friday! Dress up and see how you like it-- You OWN that progress Ana! Woo!

Sorry to go on about this stuff if none of it applies to you today, i just want to help you all get to your goals! I know you are all amazing! (: (:

Xoxoxx

It's Thursday....

So i don't know about you people, but i absolutely hate Thursdays. They are always super long and boring. And to top it all off, where i live it is raining. AND there is snow on the ground. Both of which i hate. 

Anyways, so i apologize for not keeping up to date the past few days, i wasn't sure that anybody read this until someone emailed me thanking me for starting a blog dedicated to helping us all reach our goals. 

I started a five day fast on Monday, but then i went out to eat on my campus yesterday and TOTALLY binged. Let me just list off to you what i ate, you will be horrified:

-A turkey sandwhich on a roll.
-Half a plate of white rice.
-A huge serving of chinese chicken.
-A bag of Lays Baked Original chips.
-A diet coke.
-And this coconut bar with chocolate chips and a graham cracker crust.

Is that not TOTALLY disgusting? I weighed 123 before dinner and 125 after. It is so hard for me to lose weight and i get so discouraged with myself when i don't. 

Anyways, i have a few tips for you to get through the day today (and possibly tomorrow, if i don't post..)

1. DO NOT be like me. DO NOT BINGE. I know it might sound good, but promise me that you will NOT do it. Just for me? Kk? 

2. If you have made an accomplishment (like i did with my 123) then GO AND REWARD YOURSELF. Find the healthiest vegetable you like and eat a little bit more than you would! Or go drink a diet soda, anything that you don't normally have, but also that wont raise your calorie intake. A serving of saltines, isn't going to kill you. You have to reward yourself every so often when you reach a new goal, otherwise you wont feel AS determined. Trust me, it helps.

3. Last tip for today is to FIND SOMEONE WHO NEEDS HELP. Maybe you don't need an ana buddy to keep yourself motivated, but SOMEONE out there DOES. They are crying for your help because they cannot do this all on their own. Just find someone and reach out. 

If you need help, my email is: simplyana123@gmail.com
and i am always willing to help, that's why i have this blog...
I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! YOU ARE MORE POWERFUL THAN FOOD. It is really nothing but carbs, calories, and fat. So go and do your best. And let me know how you are doing! 

Good luck! Stay small, stay strong.
Xoxx