empty stomach

If you aren't sleeping on an empty stomach, then you aren't doing something right!

Don't wake up with regret of what happened yesterday.

And tomorrow is a new day, don't ruin it.

2012!

So hi! I'm so excited!

I'm getting back on track!

Today all i have eaten is a roll, a bowl of cooked peas & carrots & well i caved, and i ate a small bowl of funeral potatoes.

...You don't need to know what they are, they are just really really delicious....

And so i'm regretting that.. But i think i will do better tomorrow!

Thanks for everybody's support.

I know that i can get down to 110 or 105. I'm currently at 115. So it shouldn't be too hard! Right?

Happy New Years! I hope everybody has recommited to their diets & such! This can be the year you are can be gorgeous.. or it can be the year you fail. Again.

You choose.

never have time...

I apologize for not ever writing on this blog.

I don't diet as much with calorie restriction anymore.

I exericise alot & eat veggies.

...i've also done a bit of purging lately...

NEVER PURGE.

PLEASE.

If you guys still need help PLEASE email me:

(simplyana123@gmail.com) 

I want to help as many of you as i can.

BUDDIES

Do you need a buddy?? EVERYONE deserves to be skinny.

Here's a few girls that would appreciate your help in emailing them!

katiie_emm@hotmail.co.uk

stardust.veins@gmail.com

jeannybel_13@hotmail.com

xemmaxphilbrick@yahoo.com

Plus if you want your email up here just leave a comment, or email me at simplyana123@gmail.com

SORRY I CAN'T GIVE YOU ALL PERSONAL ADVICE! I JUST HAVE TOO MANY EMAILING ME & I WORK THREE JOBS PLUS SCHOOL! BEST OF LUCK!

ribcage!

People of the ana world:

I now have a defined ribcage!

Plus when i put my feet together the tops of my thighs don't touch anymore! 

Buuuut, my boobs have shrunk. 

WHO CARES!!!

121!

i weigh 121!

i am so happy right now because it thought i've been binging all day.

keep my image shrinking! 

if i can do it, you all can. i KNOW it.

tips!

I found these tips this morning and thought you might find them helpful too! 

http://proanabell.webs.com/tips.htm

no ana buds

Hey girls, i just wanted to let you know why i haven't gotten back to you about being ana buddies. 

I am really busy with work and such at this time that i cannot be really helpful to anyone in particular. I really apologize for this. I feel terrible for not getting back to you guys.
If you want me to, send me an email telling me that you need a buddy and i will post your email on my blog asking for anybody to help you! (simplyana123@gmail.com) I've done this a couple times and it seems to work. Just let me know because i wont do it without your permission. Oh dear, i hope you will forgive me for neglecting all of you girls! 

Please remember that i believe in you! 

Stay Strong.

mee

This is me.

Haven't been ana for about 3 months. 

Need to get back on track!

F A T

This is what i feel like.

I don't know what to do.

I need to be skinny. 

But i have been eating food for weeks now.

I'm addicted.

HELP.

Drink Water--Live Longer

Hey guys! How are you weeks going?? Mine is going sooo well! You will never guess how many pounds i've lost! 5! I am now 123! Which, i know, is terrible for the summertime, but i also have a double huge craving for sweets and treats in the summer...

People have been emailing me hate messages lately about how i am NOT pro-ana, but i really believe that i am. I feel like yeah, sometimes i snack on some things and totally feel guilty about it later, but besides that i really do not eat at all unless i am around other people. (WHICH IS THE ONLY TIME YOU SHOULD EAT.) So if any of those people are reading this right now, i kinda just want to let them know that i know what i believe and if you don't agree with me, i really don't care..

I keep doing those dots at the end of a paragraph. So anyways. The point of this post before my ADHD kicked in and i got all distracted, was to tell you to be drinking water. ALL THE TIME. Drink drink drink. Seriously. Yes, water makes you gain weight, but it also flushes out all the toxins in your body that store fat and stuff. It will keep you so much healthier, which in turn will make you lose weight. Now if you can take water weight pills, i would highly suggest it. While it wont make you lose any permanent weight, it really really really helps keep your water weight down. AND since you get dehydrated easily you will constantly be drinking water. PLUS i have found that it gives me energy when i have had a hard time sleeping at night or whatever.

The water pills i take are called "diurex ULTRA" and i think i just got them at Target or Walmart.. They seem to work for me! I just have to go to the bathroom all the time. SO KEEP THAT IN MIND WHEN YOU TAKE THEM. Just don't depend on them to permanently lose all your weight for you, they are NOT a magical pill ha ha. Well my crazy family is calling me up for dinner, time to go decieve.. I wish you all luck. Email me at simplyana123@gmail.com if you have any questions OR you can just comment below and i will try to answer.

STAY STRONG!! xoxO

Team America!

So i know that i have a few readers that do not live in the USA... and to you guys, i apologize for this post. It probably wont have too much meaning to you. But to all you Patriots out there: this is for you and I. 


Tonight was our familys annual Fourth of July party (i know it is just the 2nd--But the golf course across the street does their huge fireworks tonight so wtf, we celebrate NOW. Ha ha) But yes. So i realized that it was HELL trying to avoid eating. Mostly because everybody was watching me...but also because it was so damn hard to stay away from all the yummy looking food! (I am a mega fan of summer foods.) 


While i don't have many tips for you cute ana's i can tell you this. If you have to keep people off of your back and stop them from giving you crap about  "not eating" then EAT FRUITS. I know they aren't super healthy because of the sugars, but they are hella low in calories compared to hot dogs and chips and desserts. The main fruit to go for (and the one that will most likely be at every freaking picnic in town) WATERMELON. This stuff is amazing as a decoy. Just carry it around with you and take bites of it every once in awhile. Seriously, it sounds silly but it saved my butt tonight from my annoying boyfriend who worries too much. 


I know you guys will be great! Good luck with all your BBQ's and celebrations of America! GO TEAM USA!
xOOXx

Long Time NO Posts!

I am soooo sorry to let you all down! Oh my heavens i have been terrible. And not just with this blog. I have let myself go. Seriously. So as you well know if you read my blog i was at the university and all with a great life for the past year. Loving boyfriend. Great diet. Great roommates. WELL. Now i am back at home, as previously mentioned in "Laxatives." And it is HELL. Omg. My family eats together alllll the time. And when i am not at work, i am REQUIRED to eat with them. Soooo i weigh a whopping 129 pounds now. UHMMMMMM. If you dont remember, I WAS AT 118 at one point.. Oh it's terrible.

BUT I AM BACK. I am very close with one ana buddy in particular, and i mentioned to her about a week ago, it is summer and i NEED to look good in my bikini. None of this fatty stomach and thick thighs.. So i am gradually cutting back calories. And while i am not exactly at a low level right now, i am doing well. And considering i spend my days working on my feet at an amusement park, i think i burn alot of calories...at least i hope.


I want to give you some heads up and please read this carefully. I want to help you if you are doing anything harmful.

*I am PRO-ANA. NOT PRO-MIA. If you have a problem with purging i want you to let me know. IMMEDIATELY. This is NOT a safe practice at all. Anorexia if watched closely is not harmful to your body, but if you are bulimic in ANY form i want you to get help.

*I had many concerning emails from my "Laxatives" post. IF YOU ARE ABUSING LAXATIVES, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. When i said that laxatives are handy i mean it. They are. Especially because being anorexic can really stop you from having bowel movements. By advising you to take laxatives i hope you will have the common sense to know your body well enough and when to know if enough is enough. While laxies can help you shed a couple pounds every week, you can't take them too often (one or two times a week is PLENTY) otherwise your body will become dependent on them and that will suck. 


If you need help in any way, PLEASE email me at simplyana123@gmail.com I will really try to help you ASAP. BUT remember i am busy with work and being lazy. Ha ha. I wish you all the best of luck and KNOW that you can lose all your unwanted fat. It only takes desire and determination. You are amazing. Please practice safe methods-wouldn't want to lose any of you stars. 
XoXXo

Laxatives

Hey guys i am not very good with this blog anymore and i totally apologize but i don't think i am going to get any better, however, it IS a goal of mine to try to more constantly update it! 


Today i wanted to tell you about something new that i have just started doing. And as you can guess by the title: that is LAXATIVES! I have been slacking off alot lately and eating alot of food since i moved back home with the fam. So it is super easy, right before i eat i just take 2 laxatives and bam within like 2 hours i am... uh... *ehm* all the waste inside me is being disposed! I LOVE IT. You guys should really all try it. At first it was not fun for me though, like i will warn you i got some of THE WORST cramps EVER. But i really got used to it and now they dont come anymore. 


If you have any feedback or anything you want me to mention in my blog email me at simplyana123@gmail.com i will help you out with anything, although i'm not super great at replying to ana buddies much anymore, (i apologize to those i have let down..) 

I love you girls! Stay strong! It's summertime and you ALWAYS want to look your best! 
xoxo

How are you!

So heyyy.... Sorry for the wait! My ABC diet is going along ever so well! I have lost almost 10 pounds and i am feeling so happy! I hope that all of you girls are doing AMAZINGLY! I know that you probably are. 


Finals are really stressing me out and that is why i haven't been able to update for so long, oh that and because i'm losing so much weight and not all fat at 125 my boyfriend told me he loves me! AH! Ha i haven't told him back, but i think i will soon! Everything is so happy, but also sad.


This weekend is EASTER! Today is actually Good Friday and Sunday is Easter! I am really really excited to go visit my family and to look cuuuuute on Easter Sunday. I am actually Mormon (Not a very good one, but Mormon nonetheless) and so i will attend church on Sunday and i am going to look hot with all my weight loss. I hope that those of you who do believe in God, or the Lord Jesus Christ that you will go to a church on Sunday and show your appreciation what he has done for our mistakes. 


Sorry to turn this post into a gospel message, i have just recently become a member of the LDS church and i really believe in the Prophet Thomas Monson who guides and keeps the church on the right path. I know that without our saviour Jesus Christ we would all live painful lives and when we died we would carry all the mistakes and sorrows we made for the rest of eternity. 


I hope that you are doing well. PLEASE don't give up your fasts or diets. I know that it gets tough sometimes, but the only thing better than eating is looking and feeling good! And food doesn't offer that to you, it makes you fat. No matter what you believe in I BELIEVE IN YOU. Thank you for all of your support, i know that you guys don't think you do anything for me but anybody who has emailed me or talked to me has made an impact on my life for the better. Thank you so much.


HOPPY EASTER!
xoXO

100 Cals

Today is my 100 cals day for ABC and i really just want to fast! I am so sick of eating food! But i know that if i just fast that my metabolism will go to the dogs and i will just absolutely crash and fail. I wanted to share a book with you that i just got into.. Recommended to me by a buddy, It's called "Wasted." it's an easy read, but is tons of inspiration if you are pro-ana and need the help! I really suggest you go pick up a copy or get it from your library or something.


So i have been super busy writing this paper, and i am tired of it. If any of you want to write a paper for money let me know! Ha ha ha. But really, i am so sick of school and i'm only barely passing my classes. I have this super boyfriend who isn't my boyfriend but we hangout all the time, and act like we're in a relationship. ANYWAYS, he is so stupid: he knows i'm like self conscious about my fat and he will like ALWAYS grab it when we are snuggling and stuff! It ticks me off! Like i always try to move and he'll laugh and then i'll slightly laugh. HE  THINKS IT'S FUNNY! But it makes me so self conscious! Ughghhg. Anyways, sorry about that random rant about nothing important, i just get angry over the smallest things. What do you guys have problems with?? When makes you angry! Haa..


So i know this is short, but i don't have much to say.. I really just want you guys to know that i am there for you! And if you need anything that you can always shoot me an email (simplyana123@gmail.com) and i will try my best to get back to you pronto!


I love you guys, and hope that you never give up and know how strong you are even if you feel like you fail. There is no failure in life if you give it your all!


xOOx

Help for ALL!

I hope your Tuesdays turned out for the BEST! Today is a new day, and it doesn't matter what happened yesterday, all that matters is that you work hard TODAY! 

The reason i wanted to post this was to see if any of you fine people could help a friend of mine. Her email is perfecteli@gamil.com and her name is Eli (pronounced Ellie.) I hope you guys realize how hard it is to keep on track, and to not have good ana buddies makes it even harder, i've recently had SO many emails to answer, and i have finals coming up, so answering on a regular basis is getting tricky for me. ANYWAYS! Please help her! I know you will!

Today is the third day of ABC for me! So i'm eating 300 calories total today! I already spent alot of them though because i had half of a bagel for breakfast... I AM ADDICTED TO BAGELS! Seriously, they are like my weak spot. They taste so good, but i know that it is never worth it! BUT I STILL EAT THEM! HELP! Ha but i should be fine. 

Yesterday i went out to LUNCH AND DINNER! My boyfriend really insisted. But luckily my calories yesterday were 500, so for lunch i had some grilled chicken in a salad, with ranch dressing ON THE SIDE-- and i made it look like i ate alot of dressing so that my bf wouldn't be even more suspicious (i've talked to him about being ana, but he thinks i'm over it.) Then for dinner i had a half quasadilla (or however the hell you spell it) on a white tortilla, with a bit of cheese (TERRIBLE FOR YOU), black beans, rice, lettuce, tomatos, and this spicy sauce. And i ate a half of my half quasadilla.. And i got crap from my bf about "only eating a fourth." And i was like back off man i ate alot!! ANYWAYS, then he insisted on making this weird fettucini alfredo homemade dish thing AT LIKE 10 AT NIGHT! I was pissed.. he made me try it but i just picked at it, ate maybe 3 noodles, and make it look like i had destroyed that thing! Ha ha sneaky us...

So you guys can really make things work! Just budget your lifestyle into your diet, and remember that you are strong, and even if you mess up some days (kinda like i did yesterday...kinda) you still have another day to be ten times better! KEEP THAT IN MIND. Anyways, if you need help or support email me at simplyana123@gmail.com I really can help you, or find help for you! GOOD LUCK GALS!

xoxox

Second Run

Hey people! So i apologize (like i always do...) for not writing for awhile! I really want to inspire you but i feel like i have nothing left to say! But guess what! So you know how i have been really struggling to get back on track, and I've sorta been eating for the past few weeks?? Well, I'M BACK IN ABC! I am totally going to really work hard this time too! No getting off track, because i wont be at home for vacation while i am running through it! I just decided to start on day two though because then i can keep it matching with the days of the week so that i wont forget what day i am on! So 500 calories today: i woke up late (around 11:30) ate a cup of honey nut cheerios (110 cals) and then went out to lunch on campus with my boyfriend around 2 and had a small salad, with ranch on the side. I cut small pieces of chicken and slightly dipped them into the ranch. All in all, i think it was less than 200 calories (only because the chicken was fried and TOTALLY unhealthy.) But he knows that i used to be anorexic, and so when i'm with him he FORCES me to eat... 


I want you guys to do ABC with me! And some of you may not even know what it is, but it was so successful the last run i had! So i can't wait to keep it up! If you just look up "Ana Boot Camp" on google you will find TONS of information about it! If you want to do it with me and me to help you stay on track then let me know! (simplyana123@gmail.com) You guys will love it!


The real reason that i became so dedicated to this diet the second time around is because i have a photoshoot on Saturday. And i really look terrible, i want to shape up just a bit for the day, and then continually get better looking as the days follow! But i realized, without motivation, you will NOT get very far... So find something or some reason that you NEED to lose your fat! Even if you feel like you don't.... IT WILL TOTALLY WORK! I really know that you will succeed so much better! So find a reason and STICK TO IT! BE MOTIVATED! 


You guys are amazing, all of the girls that i have talked to have helped me so much, and i really appreciate the help you provide to me! Sorry this post is long, and sorry i never ever update. But i love you all. Even though i don't know really any of you, i know that you guys are a million times better and stronger than me. So KEEP IT UP!


Xoox

IT'S FRIDAY! ....again....

I would like to thank a few of you girls that have contacted me asking for help. I really do enjoy helping others and i love when you guys come to me. I know that i've been really bad with this blog and i want to explain to you why:
I live in Utah and it's like snowing like CRAZZZZY! And my laptop just broke, and as a poor college student i don't want to buy a new one and as a lazy college student i never want to trudge (is that even a word??) through the snow to go and update this blog. So i do apologize. I still love you guys.


I really want you guys to remember that you can make it! I know i say this over and over and OVER AND OVER... but i know that if you let your will-power have more grasp over your life and decrease your want that you TOTALLY get the hang of things. Here are some things you can do that help me sometimes when i really just want to give up for good: (Some are COMPLETELY RIDICULOUS):


If there is nobody around or in your house, YELL at your food, tell if how mad you are at it. I know you will look like a mental patient, and i would love to watch someone else do it, but really, then you can remember that you are "the boss" and you have the choice to do whatever you want and that stupid food isn't really anything to you. 


If you just can't stop yourself from eating the food then eat a bit, and then spit it out. NOW LISTEN UP. PUT THE FOOD BACK IN YOUR MOUTH. You will hopefully lose your appetite for eating the rest. Yucky yucky yucky. 


Go put on your swimsuit and stand in front of your mirror and do jumping jacks until you shake. Then you will be more exhausted then hungry and you will take a nap. 


Chew Gum. It makes your stomach hungry but keeps your mouth occupied. 


These are all the tips i can think of off the top of my head, if you guys have any good ones feel free to post them! 


And always, You can email me 24/7 at (simplyana123@gmail.com)


LOVE YOU! ...really, i do! You ana's keep me running! 


XOxoO

Never too Late

Helllo people! Soooo i know i am terrible at posting but i just feel like i run out of things to tell you guys, so if you have any questions at all of what to do or anything you need help with at all then PLEASE PUH-LEASE let me know! (simplyana123@gmail.com) You guys are awesome and i know that whatever struggles you are going through right now, are minor things, and that you will be back on track and doing amazingly whenever you set your mind to really committing to it. 

GOOOOOOoooOOD LuuuuUUUUckkk!

XooOx